Caught By Shadows ...

Still can’t find my road, my way of life

I observe people running from their realities

To laugh on themselves, playing what they aren’t

Playing what they wanted to be, what they couldn’t be

I wanna reach the sky, it seems so close, but

Never I will have the chance, to observe you

From there, how beautiful you will be from there

My life, oh!!! My dear life, how sweet you were?

And how dark, pessimistic you become!!!

I still have the night, my nights are long

But so dark, that I can never see, I can never realize

How stupid I was? Cuz I’ve let you run out

Without seizing the opportunity to take your control

Darkness and shadow play with me, my only friends

You taught me how to live, how life is so hard?

I don’t deserve to live it that way, it worth better

You taught me that life is more than sweet words,

Words that I’ve said in a time, I was hurt in a time!!!

An universe, we can never know where it ends

Neither from where it begins, so deep, as my thoughts

How deep you become? My life, how sweet you were?

With the only hope to find “ME”, the old “ME”!!!

I’ll leave you run out, without asking, so mad,

I’ll stay between darkness and shadows,

And try to observe you, from here, and only here.

Etre ...

Etre, est-ce la vie qui importe ? Est-ce la vie qui compte ?

Vivre, essayer de survivre et conserver l’être,

Jamais heureux, pensant au “Rose“, que la vie ne comporte

Toujours affamé, toujours assoiffé, ça ne vaut pas le coup d’être !!

Sourire, rire, se moquer de l’autre et de soi,

Essayant de trouver le bonheur, ne cherche pas le bonheur !!

Trouve toi un chemin, regarde l’autre, regarde moi,

Toute une vie, essayant de trouver le bonheur, je n’ai eu que les malheurs !!

Suivant les sourcils, suivant le front, suivant le vide !!

Pourquoi chercher trop ? Pourquoi penser haut, si on a devant ?

Exhiber le sourire, cacher le pire, soit pas aussi stupide !!

Suis ton chemin, tu y arrivera, commence à faire marche avant !!

Ta vie tu retrouvera, ta vie tu gagnera ! Patience !!

Détermine ton besoin, trace ton destin, n’attend pas le “Rose“,

Soit tu l’oublies, tu vivras en noir, toujours en absence !!

Soit tu la cherches, tu vivras en blanc, mais jamais en “Rose“

Oublie ton passé, vis ton présent, cherche ton futur !!

Baisse jamais les bras, le combat a juste commencé,

Suis ton instinct, change ton destin, trouve ton futur !!

Tu y arriveras un jour, j’en suis absolument sûr !!

Ainsi tu t’apercevras que ça a vraiment valut le coup d’Etre !!

Et Si C'Etais ...

Rongé par le mal qui me traque toujours

J’essaye de m’exposer au grand soleil, si brillant

Espérant être, souhaitant vivre, me confiant aux jours

Pour me briser le silence, pour me sillonner le temps !!!

Ma vie, un long chemin de défaites, de désespoir

En qui vais-je faire confiance, sur qui vais-je compter

Sur moi-même, j’espère garder confiance, ainsi savoir

Si vraiment fort je suis, si vraiment fort je vais rester !!!

Les jours passent, mais mon passé est encore présent

Me faisant souffrir a chaque instant, en ce moment !!!

Mon destin, si inconnu, puis-je le savoir, et ainsi savoir

Si c’était pour moi, créée pour être le souffrant !!!

Si c’était, pourquoi se demander si je le sais déjà ?

Mon destin, a dieu reviendra, alors dieu décidera

Vivre le soufrant, vivre le changeant ici et là

Ayant la foi, je vais continuer, jamais je regretterai !!!

Et si c’était moi, depuis le début, créateur du soi

Un soi qui n’a jamais pu trouver le bonheur

Essayant de le chercher ailleurs, et si c’était en moi

Jamais je vais me pardonner d’avoir rater la saveur

Du grand bonheur, vivant les malheurs, cachant les lueurs

D’un grand soleil, si brillant, je somnole en gardant espoir,

Je cherche au fond de moi, essayant de me rappeler l’histoire

D’un petit garçons sur qui jamais on a pu voir

Un signe de malheur, une bavure de désespoir

Un petit garçon qui n’a pas pu savoir quand as-t-il sauté

La muraille éblouissante de l’enfance, l’éclat de l’innocence

Et si c’était moi, depuis le début, qui cherche le désespoir

Je ne m’arrêterais pas là, je ne regretterais pas toute une vie

Que dieu si clément m’a accordé, pour vivre, être et avoir

Prendre le bien, laisser le mal, et savourer la belle vie !!!

ResemblanCe ...

Can we take a few moments, just a moment?
Just to have a think, to find out our resemblance
To the sky, to the sea, to the earth and to us
Our life run away and we still dont know it
I always wanted to stop you when you say
"Viva life", i know it's your beautiful mind
That make you so happy, so kind to say
"Viva Life", but it's not so simple to live
This way, that way, you think i have a black mind
But not, you're wrong, it's not my mind, but our life

You remember our resemblance,
To the sky, to the sea, to the earth and to us
Take a moment, and help me to realize
If we're like the sky, where's our shining sun?
The blue sky is so vaste, so beautiful
Can we just stay in our open hall?
To observe people saying "beautiful couple"
Im afraid we cant, so you think we resemble
To the sky, no!!!! never!!!!

The large sea, deep as my thoughts
So mysterious that just his creator can know it
But we still have, in spite of all
People saying, "Wow!!what a wonderful sea"
Can we resemble to sea, you just know the answer!!!

Now, come with me, and have a look, to the earth
Awful, soiled, poisoned, dirty, obscene and many more
We cant deny it, because it's the reality
Now we will have a trip to the moon,
Looking to the earth, what can we say less than "Superb"
And we know that we can never resemble to the earth

We just resemble to us, you and me
But can we live together, im afraid not
Because life dont allow us to be together
Just because one day, you will say,
"You're not the man i loved before", and i will understand you
Because this is me, changing everyday, every moment
To live, like life wants, the chameleon is my sign
He knows how to change with time and space
To live however life wants, whatever he looks like
He will live, with many resemblances
And he will die, with one, just one resemblance

To a chameleon!!!!!!!!

Last Wishes ...

I got up early this morning, so afraid!!!

Trayin' to remember this dream i had,

That frightened me in the middle of the night

Sittin' alone in my dark "N" cold room,

I think of yesterday, today and tomorrow!!!

But what if i had no Tomorrow? Can i stand?

What did i do in my life, that can save me from hell

All my sins passed and passed in front of my eyes

Could god bless me? Did i have time to repent

I dont care to myself, but what will be my life

Will someone miss me, will they forgive me?

All i wish now is to know what's hapenin' to me?

I wish that all my lovers lives "N" Dies in a lovely world

I wish that peace cover up earth, heaven "N" hell

I wish you'll be free, to live, to say, to laugh "N" to cry

I wish you'll express what i didn't, what i couldn't!!!

I wish you'll worth to live, cuz life worth to be lived

I wish you merry christmas, happy valentine,long life...

I know now, this is the beginnin' of the end!!!

I wish i can stay to see you livin' as i want you

And i'll not regret, to disapear, cuz i dont leave

Just i will live, to observe you, my only hope,only love

But i cant!!! live my free bird, and wish me the good

Cuz then i can say that my last wishes come true!!!

Lapse Of MemorY...

Sittin’ in my dark ‘N’ cold room
Tryin’ to remember something i know
Can’t find the name, but it’s here
Somewhere in my mind, hauntin’ my thoughts
Troubles ‘N’ weakness kill out my breath
Can i just remember? That’s what i want


Im still tryin’ but it seems to me out of reach
What’s happend to me? So confused, so afraid
Is this the beginning of the end?
Hope “Yes”Cuz i can’t go on, it’s killin’ me softly
Nobody by my side, to help me give in
Don’t wanna give in but what to do?
Life’s so hard to be lived this way
At the moment, sleepy, smokin’ the last one
Even the smoke let me down, disapear ‘N’ let me alone


The lapse of memory, i heard about it
But never i believed in it, don’t know why
Maybe God’s testin’ me to believe
But i hate tests, at least this kind of tests
That make me leave my world, my body ‘N’ my soul
Wanna get rid of this soul but don’t know how
Im so weak to think about suicide

Leavin’ my dark ‘N’ cold room

In the middle of the night, goin’ out

To escape my pain, everything’s so calm, so tender

But not me, still tryin’ to remember but nothing


Waitin’ for God’s help to hold my pain
To rejoin my dark ‘N’ cold room
Hope that’s only me, sufferin’ alone
From lapse of memory, cuz if u wanna kill someone
You don’t have to use guns, just wish him
To suffer from lapse of memory !!!!

If ....

If yesterday never dies,

Could i stand and open eyes?

To see, to say and to hear heaven's sound

Heart's close, hands're open wide

The sun rise and set at the same time

Today's comin' just to wipe off my crime

If today never ends,

How to find my soul, my mind?

Lost between space and time

However life's runnin', im standin'

In the middle of the storm

Feelin' the hot, the cold and the warm

Waitin' for tomorrow to ease my pain

To open my eyes, to enjoy the sunshine

If tomorrow never comes,

No hope, no aim and no dream,

How can i live, i just wanna know?

I will survive, that's sure!!

But just to hate, to hit, to kill and to die

No one can save me, when there's me

There's no one else, dyin' silently,

Waitin' for you, will you let me down????

HoW LonG ???

How long should I wait to see your face in front of mine?
Many years passed, and I still have that feeling
That makes me weak, cryin’ for you and for my wasted life
Can I stand more? I hope I can … As so I can go on
In a way, am confused and much more afraid from future
That I don’t know, that I can’t anticipate… So, blind I’ll walk
Brave hearts fight, don’t give up, to glory or to death
I’ll fight, not for glory, but for my life…
I must winAnd hope see you again, to wipe off my pain
To make me laugh, to make me scream and to light up my life…

How long should I stay in this dark, that kills me softly?
Screamin’, cryin’ and fightin’ without hope, without aim
The sun shine and rise, but my sky has no sun, so dark
Even stars, refuse to give me a little light, a little hope…
How should I go on? Without you, blindness is death,
Can’t stand more, screams and shouts break my feelings
Feelings… That lovely word, that misses me so much
What have I done in my life, to deserve this pain, this horror
Am gonna repent now, only Great Lord can help me

How long could I live, I hope live enough, not for me
But for you, to beg you forgive me, and thenOnly then,
I can go in peace, cuz you’ll be always in me.